Thoughts

A young colleague from my regenerative real estate community reached out to me recently to chat about career paths as he explored all the options and possibilities that lie ahead of him. It was rather refreshing for me to ponder on what we all do with our career in this day and time. Naturally, things are quite different from when I was in my 20s thinking about how my anticipated career path would unfold.

Even though I’m still feeling young and healthy in my early 60s, I do notice different signs of aging. I have more gray hair, my knuckles are swelling on my hands, and many other subtle differences. I’m keenly aware that I have less years ahead of me than I have behind now. While I’m very grateful for my health and vitality, I can’t help but to reflect on the remembrances in Buddha’s teaching: I am of the nature to grow old; I am of the nature to have ill health; I am of the nature to die; all that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature to change… There’s no way around these truths although one may argue science could change that. Yet the last of the remembrances says, “my actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand.”

This morning, I went on a hike, and the transformation of the buckwheat flowers caught my eye. Their flowers had given way to a rich tapestry of rusty colors. The crispness of the air and the gentle embrace of clouds over our local mountains affirmed that autumn had arrived. It’s a poignant reminder of life’s impermanence, a cycle we embrace with each passing season.

Thank God to friends who remind me to trust and that everything will work out for the best. It’s easier said than done, but that’s actually the only solace I can find. No matter what, whether my work would actually see any tangible result or not, all will work out however it’s supposed to. Needless to say, what helps me overcome doubt and cultivate trust is to practice meditation and mindfulness regularly. Through these practices, I observe our thoughts and feelings, including doubt, without judgment. By acknowledging doubt without attachment, I can begin to let go of it and gradually develop a more profound sense of trust in ourselves and the world. And there I can find a modicum of serenity.

Less than two weeks have passed since the unprecedented Southern California hurricane struck. A few months ago, we experienced unprecedented snowstorms that wreaked havoc across California. The impact of global warming is undeniably affecting all life on Earth. As a species, humans bear responsibility for creating these climate challenges. Yet, we often resist changing our way of life in favor of continuing with our familiar routines. If households across the country or around the world were to adopt measures to reduce their carbon footprint, there’s still potential to shift the trajectory of rising temperatures and possibly mitigate the intensity of extreme weather events.

Amid this whirlwind of activity, I found myself feeling unusually stressed. Balancing my clients’ needs with my own well-being seemed like a tightrope walk, especially considering my inclination to overexert myself. Instead of resorting to my customary unwinding method of catching up on news or social media, I heeded a quiet inner voice whispering, “take a pause.” This made me realize that these habits were often just distractions, veering me away from addressing my true feelings. Despite the flutter of anxiety, I chose to confront my emotions head-on. As it turned out, much of this stress stemmed from the uncertainty of how the project would unfold.

Although I’m far from perfect, I’m making a very concerted effort to do my part of reducing the carbon footprint. Every little choice we make in our daily lives does count. Everything as little as turning off the lights when not used to being as big as putting solar panels on the roof. Bottomline, let’s be mindful of how we use the resources. If you want to hear more specific suggestions, follow me on my podcast, HomeGreenHomes, or let’s have a conversation. It’s not about the environment alone, it’s all about the wellbeing of human species and all other species we live with.

Last week, I had the honor of celebrating the birthday of one of my spiritual sisters in the mountains. As a medicine woman deeply rooted in indigenous practices, she invited us to partake in a Despacho Ceremony for this special occasion. While unfamiliar with the ritual, I embraced the opportunity wholeheartedly. The ceremony, a cherished tradition of the Incas from the Andean regions, holds the essence of reciprocity — an act of giving back to Mother Earth, Pachamama, as an expression of profound gratitude for the gifts she bestows upon us. Although my understanding was limited, I found myself immersed in this sacred experience, offering prayers for healing and harmony in our world.

Recently, a group of us with spiritual practices initiated a spontaneous gathering, forming a healing circle. In this circle, we meditate together and share our personal stories and journeys, providing each other with invaluable wisdom and support. This heartfelt exchange of experiences has been immensely nourishing, and we find solace in connecting with fellow travelers on this journey called life.

This birthday became a powerful reminder of the significance of accepting the generosity of others and relinquishing control to embrace life’s spontaneity. As I embark on this latter third of my life, I aim to continue exploring the depths of myself and learning to receive graciously. I recognize that opening up to the love, kindness, and support around me is not a sign of weakness but a celebration of our interconnectedness as human beings.

Recently, I have been facing some emotional challenges, as I mentioned before. It seems like many people around me are also going through difficult times. That is why I am even more grateful to have these young and playful creatures in my house, as they never fail to make me smile, if not burst into laughter. I have noticed how they can lift my spirits and bring me joy, even in the midst of my turbulent thoughts. It is truly a gift to be able to hold both joy and sorrow (or any other challenging emotions) simultaneously.

I was born in July near the beach, which. seemed to have imprinted a deep love for the season within me. The warmth of the sun, the soothing sound of the waves, and the cool breeze all became a cherished part of who I am. Amidst the longing for my coastal adventures, I found solace in embracing the practice of mindfulness. Mindfulness, at its core, is about being fully present in the moment, acknowledging and accepting one’s thoughts and feelings without judgment.

I find the indigenous wisdom so aligned with the teachings of Buddha. Both indigenous cultures and Buddhism emphasize the interconnectedness of all beings and the importance of living in harmony with nature. Just as indigenous wisdom recognizes the earth as a provider and urges us to respect and care for it, Buddha taught the principles of mindfulness, compassion, and non-harm towards all living beings. I know there are many other philosophies in the world with similar insights. It’s just another reminder to learn to live more mindfully and work towards a more harmonious coexistence with both the natural environment and fellow beings.

Having been sick on and off for two months seems to have taken a wind out of me. I noticed I was winded when I went out for a walk on the trail in the nearby green belt, which usually feels like a leisurely stroll. Despite my tendency to keep doing, it has also been difficult for me to feel motivated to get back to work at full throttle. In all honesty, I found myself spiraling down to some sort of depression. Rather than trying to deny or suppress these feelings, I stayed with it to observe my thoughts. I reflected on what my soul truly longed for, and it wasn’t until about a week ago that I realized all I needed was a few days of solitude at home. I’m grateful that my husband understood my need for space and provided me with the opportunity to retreat and rejuvenate.

As I drove drove down San Diego Freeway into L.A. this week, I was delighted by the sight of those purple clouds all over the city. It’s that time of year again when my favorite jacarandas are in full bloom. After living in this area for over 40 years, jacarandas have become synonymous with the graduation season for me, much like cherry blossoms in Japan where the school season starts in April and ends in March. Both are reminders of the transformative power of education and new beginnings.

Although the trip had been planned before my illness, it unfolded with impeccable timing. It was exactly what I needed after weeks of confinement and recovery. The beauty of Ventura, coupled with the symbiotic dance of nature, revitalized my body and soul. It served as a poignant reminder that sometimes the most regenerative experiences arise unexpectedly, sweeping us away in their restorative embrace.

It reminded me of the healing power of nature, the importance of genuine connections, and the significance of embracing life’s unexpected.

Being still is not easy for me, who tends to feel good when I’m “getting things done.”.  Yet for the last several days, I just laid around and listened to books on audio. These are all the reasons why I need my meditation practice, which I haven’t while I’ve been sick.  What I’ve noticed while befriending with this illness, though, is that there’s something inside of me beckoning my attention.  I can’t quite put a finger on it, but the calling is getting louder.  Perhaps it’s time for another retreat.  Some kind of time and space for introspection are needed.  

As I consider the years ahead, I am reminded of the importance of cherishing memories while embracing the present. It's not just about digitizing photographs or reducing physical clutter; it's about finding a balance between holding onto what truly matters and being able to let go of what no longer serves a purpose. It's about creating space, both physically and mentally, to fully experience life as it unfolds.

As I gaze upon the bountiful blooms and the majestic snow-covered peaks, I am reminded of the profound interconnectedness of all living things. The lessons nature imparts are not confined to the external world; they extend to our own lives and the nourishment we require to thrive. By reflecting on our own growth and nurturing our well-being, we can align ourselves with nature’s rhythms and discover the harmony that comes from being an integral part of this remarkable world.

Embraced by the bright yellow blossoms of Palo Verdes, this place was meticulously landscaped and maintained. All the desert species were thriving with the backdrop of snow capped Mt. San Jacinto. Quite a view! As I walked the labyrinth in the garden, I was contemplating on Life as I have been lately. It’s not the destination that I get to enjoy the most, but the whole meandering path. We all know where the end is, and we get to take each step on the path in front of us even when we don’t know when and where it ends. It’s kind of like that, right? I think I’m learning to get used to this uncertain nature of my journey and surrendering my impulse to control outcomes in all areas of my life. It can be quite liberating.