Facing the Grief...
In a way keeping my mind so busy with all the things to “figure out” is probably my defense mechanism of avoiding my feelings. Unlike when my kitty, Nicola, was declining and ultimately passing away, I haven’t had a chance to really feel into the eminent loss of my mother. Having the distance and time from her, it’s hard to grasp the grief viscerally. And I’m terrified that I will have to face it alone in quarantine when I get there.